I know the feelings you describe, but remember that we have bipolar. Moods will change eventually (like your instructor said, "It will get better"). Having written that, please know I'm not altogether clueless; I have been following your difficult path lately. I just hope you can get past this. I'm not invalidating your feelings; I've just been in situations similar to the ones you describe & I'm still here - depressed at present...but here.