Well, I liked some of my old support workers, but many of the workers I met didn't have a clue about autism. Even for the ones I did enjoy working with, they eventually moved on. You cannot get too attached to support workers. It's easier said than done, as clients of support services may feel lonely, and you kind of gain a special bond with them. However, it's really just a job to them at the end of the day, and they have lives of their own that doesn't include current or former clients. They're not even really allowed to contact any current or previous clients through social media, even after they depart from these type of agencies.

Once, I even had some guy abusing me, who was a support worker. He was one of the first people I worked with, nearly 10 years ago. When I was looking for this ex-girlfriend I met a long time ago, this male worker sent me emails using a pseudonym, because he knew I was putting ads about her online. My first key worker told him that I kept harping on about wanting to get back with her. It consumed me. However, I did get back with her eventually, and boy, how I wish she had stayed in the past!

It got worse. He started putting his real name in the messages, and he confessed it was him. He initially replied from the ads, but he created a real email address with a fake name to bait me into replying. He knew other trolls on the Internet were driving me nuts, because my key worker updated him about all that junk as well, so he did the same things they did, which is really sad. Many of the emails he sent to me were very tasteless. There were a lot of emails about what '80s bands I am into. He also said derogatory things about a dead WWE star called Eddie Guerrero a few times, which I didn't appreciate.

I'm not sure why he abused me like that. He was actually an okay sort of guy in general, but once he was drinking alcohol during a shift, and when I asked him what it was he had stashed away in his jacket, he said it was "Russian Water." However, I know that nobody is perfect, and you get good and bad people everywhere. It was very inappropriate, so I sincerely hope he isn't working as a caregiver anymore. I'm sure he probably still is, as I heard stuff about him ages ago from other people that thought he was an angel, but that's all in the past now.

To be honest, I liked those old posts by Luna (with a period) on here. I assume this is a girl's name. Luna once posted on here and said that if I want to be in a relationship with a woman, I should find a woman who has the same condition that I do, as ordinary women won't care for somebody like me, due to my quirks. That's definitely true. One thing I hate about life is that just about every woman I do take a fancy to, ends up being reserved. Either that, or there are professional boundaries.

Hopefully, I'll find that perfect male support worker someday soon, who will like working with me just as much as I will perhaps like working with him.