Hey ex-t. I did good not emailing you this morning. (Well, me and Bob Newhart and some couch folks! ) I wanted to share w you the realization about the transference-y stuff you/my mother and how that's complicating the wishing we could be friends thing but what good would it do at this point? None. I need to just let it all the **** go. That's what would be best for me I think. Oh sure we could talk about it, but why? It's not like I can just start making appointments with you again. I can't. I can't afford it emotionally or financially. I need to remember fondly all the good and let the other stuff go.