I don’t think it happens to me to fill a void.

It started from...psssssssh...from as long as I can remember. I was four and played with the two boys next door and had crushed and talked about when we get married.

I can’t remember a time I didn’t have a mad crush on some boy.

When I was 12, I had an immense crush on a boy. He liked me as a friend, never initiated anything. I pined after him and he became my imaginary friend.

This lasted years. But he moved.

And so it goes from there... I just fell madly in love, from one to another.