I, too, am planning to change my eating habits in 2018. I’m really looking to change my relationship with food. I have had a poor relationship with food ever since I first “realized I was fat” in eight grade (newsflash: I wasn’t fat). i started starving myself all day and then couldn’t take it anymore by night time and then I would binge and hate myself for it. That went on for years, probably until I was about 20. Then I got a bit of a reprieve. But after I had my son it all came back because I felt I was so fat from the extra baby weight. Right after my husband died I went on a hardcore dieting and exercise kick because it helped me deal with the pain. But then I started ballooning up from the raised prolactin and started getting into the binge cycle again. 2017 has been been a whole back and forth of dieting and then bingeing.

I bought a binge eating workbook and I’m hoping it will help me a little bit. I also convinced the dr to lower the depakote and my appetite seems to be reducing, giving me hope I might be able to do better. My depression is also lifting, meaning I’ll be more capable of making meals instead of eating out all the time. My plan is to keep my diet as simple as possible. Fruits, lean meats, veggies, maybe some complex carbs. As little added sugar as possible, but room for a treat here and there. It’s when I deprive myself totally that I fail and binge.