I'm such an idiot, just come back from A&E as I sliced halfway through the end of my thumb preparing dinner. So now my few days off is ****ed up because I can't play my keyboard properly and make music and I'm just so fed up with my constant self sabotaging. Also I cut myself with the sharp knife I have used for SI before and this time I didn't mean it but it's really resonating in me. I just wanted to go the whole hog.