I have been off my bipolar medication for going on 2 years now due to lack of insurance. I have insurance but it doesn't cover mental health treatment at all and I cannot afford to see a doctor to get the medication I need. Over the course of 2 two years my rapid cycling has gotten worse. I have gotten so bad that I have done things to my fiance that I am ashamed of. I have beat him to the point that I am surprised I didn't kill him because he was going in and out of consiences. Just recently I hit him with a shoe in the leg he broke a long time ago to the point that he complains almost 2 weeks later that it still hurts. Please do not judge me I know I have been an abusive ***** to him and I do not deserve him. I want to get help for my bipolar but without insurance that covers this I cannot afford. HELP ME I do not know what to do or where to turn for help.