I understand the feeling of wanting to be T’s favorite entirely, too. I get very jealous at times. For me, it’s been hard recently because I’m in a day treatment program and so I know everyone else that T sees personally, and I have to see her interact with them on a daily basis as well. But, I do have to say that this has helped me be less jealous than I was in the past with Ts and their other patients. I’m starting to become more comfortable with the fact that she has special relationships with each of us and that my relationship with her is very different than her relationship with her other clients. Sometimes I still catch myself feeling jealous when she has interactions with other people/I can feel myself almost wanting to compete for her attention, but I’m really trying to check myself on that and I never let those feelings come out or be known. I feel like I should probably tell T about these feelings/my feelings of attachment towards her...but that’s one thing I’m incredibly scared to/uncomfortable with talking about. Maybe someday.