I have T tomorrow...

Having her is like having a safety net that helps me going on. But after what happened last session, i feel we're done. i cant change what she thinks of me and i dont want to go on with someone who thinks that of me... or start a war with her.

and honestly, i also want to punish her and the only way i can, is by quitting. but im not sure im ready. im afraid that if i lose her i'll lose control and lose everything i've worked on for so long (the new job and chance of getting a place on my own) and i dont want that...

What would you do?