Thanks so much for your kind words, sabby. I am deriving so much of my hope that I will get through this from the fact that I beat it before and am stronger for it. My therapist has me reading Brain Lock again, and I am trying to work through the four steps of the book. I also have put much of the burden of this on God and asked for His strength. Yesterday, I attended a healing service at my church. While I was too afraid to say to the minister why I needed healing, I knew that God was aware of my suffering. I feel less freaked out today and I hope that I will continue to improve as the days wear on. I feel like finding people here on this site was a God send as well. OCD is so distressing to those of us afflicted with it that we often suffer in silence, afraid to tell others for fear of judgment. I feel comfortable here already and it helps so much just to be able to tell someone what I'm going through.