I talked to my t last week. Since its at a clinic, and I wanted to keep the door open with her, in case it didn't work out with the next therapist (something I'm scared of..) she had an idea. She is pregnant. And having her baby in March. She said that maybe I could stay with her until she goes on maternity leave. And then try out a new therapist. If I like the therapist, I can stay with them. If not, I can go back to her and start from scratch.

I liked this idea. I was planning on going to therapy today with her....

And I utterly and completely forgot to go.

This has never happened before.

Ever.

I do have a lot on my mind, a lot of goals I want to accomplish... I'm pretty mentally scattered lately, too. It was Christmas, etc. I remembered in the morning. And then went to the gym this afternoon and forgot about going to see her. It wasn't until I took my medication this evening, that I saw what day it was, and was like, oh ****.

I know I posted here and people gave me advice. I appreciated it a lot. I guess I'm still in limbo. I'm also wondering if maybe my subconscious didn't want me to go. Or wants me to call her supervisor anyway, now, and ask for a new t.

I did write the pro's and con's list. And also a list of things I'm looking for in a new t.
I could always explain to her supervisor that I'm concerned about "skipping around" or being seen by her (the supervisor) as "Skipping around" if I don't like the next t. I just can't afford to go anywhere else right now. And I do like it there somewhat. It is better that the other clinics in my area. They are professional.