You're smart, talented, and very well educated. You can be successful if you just put your mind to it. I know you can!

I highly suggest you see a personal T to help you work through the fear of being successful and the underlying issue of fearing being out on your own. They are a wonderful asset.

FYI, just because you're living on your own doesn't mean your alone. You can fill your life with friends and family, and you'll never feel truly alone. Or get a dog to live with you. They are very beneficial.