Give yourself some grace.
And, give yourself some time.
Addiction doesn't go away after 5 weeks. In fact, after the first 4-6 weeks, that's when it can sometimes become the most difficult. (Reality sets in and all that.)
You're doing something insanely difficult. And, you're actually DOING it. That is incredibly strong. You are incredibly strong. You are doing something incredible.

I craved Klonopin for a solid year after getting off of it and only just this past weekend (after 2.5 years off of it) was able to bring myself to flush the rest that I had stashed -- and really only because my husband was watching and insisting I do it.

You're doing an amazing thing. You are amazing.

Why can't you see your T for so long? And, is there someone else you can talk to and work with in the interim?