My sleep has really been varying. I went from Christmas Eve, having no sleep, with a slight progression each day into getting more sleep. Yesterday, I had taken all my nighttime meds at the same time, and I am on a very sedating bunch of meds. It threw me into a really long sleep. For me, more sleep is better than no sleep. However, I went to bed at 4 AM and woke up around 2:00 PM. I am still exhausted! My eyes look all droopy. I was told by a family member that I "look like hell." Very nice. I am spending the day in bed, with the exception of a few chores. BP has really been a roller coaster lately, swinging between mania, hypomania, and depression within a somewhat short time frame. I am glad I took off work this week (10 days off).

At work, I was thinking that I might go on FMLA for mental health reasons, but I am hoping this break gives me enough time to be able to go back to work, although I can anticipate a struggle. I can talk to my pdoc to see what she thinks about having more time off, because I am on the fence. I think I need a good 2 months off, but money and health insurance are really needed at this time.