hi bebop,

I really appreciate the pep talks because it shows what a truly caring human being you are!

I've lived 2 lifetimes and I'm just so tired of hoping because everytime I do, and they pretend I don't exist, I have to endure the terrible mental anguish only a mother can all over again.... I prefer to be numb and put it on the back burner. Unfortunately I'm not as crazy as I want to be. If I were so out of it I wouldn't feel the pain so much. The girls' relatives have been very supportive when someone from my family bumps into them. Their auntie and cousins are so devastated at what "he" did.
I can't think about it any more.

Thanks again,