We are dealing with some pretty hard abuse related stuff. Different parts that have different jobs. Some jobs that sicken us to think of, let alone think that some part of this being did/does that.
Yesterday we dissociated our way through talking around some of these kinds of things with the T and revealed a part of us that... does things that are completely unacceptable to us. Totally. Today there is a strong urge to [violence]
I don't know how to know about this part of me. I don't want to know about this part of me. I don't want to have to know anything else about this part of me
but I know I will have to.
This sucks. I don't want this life. I don't want to have any of these things here. I just want to live my life and not have any of this horrific shameful disgusting stuff.

How do you deal? How do you all deal with knowing ... your self?