T. See? This is the **** that lies within. You didn't sign up for this, did you? it gets worse T. It gets so much worse than this.
And this is where I know I don't have the right to exist and that one hour a week isn't enough to contain it. And I know there are only two possible solutions... do what should have been done at the very beginning, or shut up shop and go home.
Its too big, its too nasty, its too impossible, and I'm sorry.