We discussed the fertility stuff. How the whole thing scares me a little because I always assumed that I'd never have kids, but that it seems like it might actually be a possibility with the steps we're taking now. I theoretically could have a baby by this time next year. Wow.

Talked about a situation I had with a friend the other day. That conversation led into how I don't feel like I'm going anywhere in therapy. How I have so much to work on, but I'm not struggling through anything. I'm good right now, all things considered.

She reminded me how disregulated I've been recently. How we're still setting up base camp. That it's part of self care for some people to go to therapy for maintenance. Then we talked about self care some. What are the things I'm committed to doing to take care of myself in 2018? My spring semester is going to be difficult: fertility treatments, work, extra crap at work, taking a graduate level course, etc. I committed to going to yoga twice a week like I have been. Continuing therapy. Meditation. Really trying to stay in the present instead of dwelling on the past or present. She said she really liked me committing to living in the present. Given my history it makes sense that I have a tendency to live my life elsewhere on the timeline.

Scheduled the next appointment as we moaned about the weather. It hasn't been above freezing all day here. I'm not made for this.