I'm sorry I can't be of much help, but I just wanted to let you know that I totally get it. I, too, am 17 (although I'm not incollege yet cuz I'm clearly not as brilliant and smart as you), have never ever belonged anywhere (which, as much as I prentend to be nonchalant about it, really sucks), find social interactions difficult, confusing, and downright exhausting, zone out all the time, seem to have absolutely no motivation whatsoever, am failing (well, not literally but you know what I mean) in school because I don't even try anymore, and feeling like I'm just wasting my worthless life away. I'm sorry this isn't advice or anything, but just know that you're not alone (gosh, that sounds cliche) and hang in there. XX