I'm so sorry you're suffering this much. Please try to hang in there. This forum is a good place to read others' experiences with transference, and you can find support here. I hope you will keep posting. When do you see your T next?

As it sounds like you may know, some transference can come from our very early childhood years when our mother (it isn't always the mom, but most often) was the center of our universe, and as small children we could be jealous of anyone else who took her attention. Your feelings may be as intense as a three-year-old child's longings would be if they could only see their mother for such a limited time, and others were able to be with her much more often (like her husband). This sounds incredibly painful. What's been tapped into may be very meaningful and if you can get through this period, you may have healed some very fundamental pain from your early years. There is hope for you in this.

Please keep posting here. Wishing you some small relief soon.