Hello azteker: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral!

I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:
https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/
I don't know as there is a lot I can suggest here with regard to your particular concerns.

You wrote that you feel you should have been brave & fought back. One thing I will mention is that. in a mental-health-related group I once attended. the group leaders told us: "Don't
should on yourself."

Here are links to some articles from the PsychCentral archives with regard to effective ways of responding to anger:
https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...-angry-person/
https://blogs.psychcentral.com/anger...-angry-people/
https://blogs.psychcentral.com/anger...ficult-people/
https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...selves-others/
There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become.

Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!