(((((((TMC)))))))))
I am so, so sorry you are going through this. I also have a problem with having a logical me vs. having an emotional me that gets really upset at things. I really hope you are coping okay. I know that there's nothing I can say to make this better for you, but know that you are not alone. A lot of people here care for you and know how you feel. Please take care and treat yourself with kindness.