Dear T,
Sorry for the e-mail--I know you aren't fond of communicating that way, but I'm just struggling right now. Tuesday seems a long ways away. I didn't mention that I tend to have issues around the New Year, too...I hope if you choose to respond that it will be worth the $45...and if you just say "Sorry you're struggling, let's discuss Tuesday," that's OK, too. I just hope you're not put off by it. Because of course I'm scared because of the stuff with MC...Just attempting to get myself out of the guilt and sadness spiral and hoping you can help...

Please don't be angry with me or think I'm going to start e-mailing you incessantly--I won't. I've learned my lesson with ex-T and MC that unlimited outside contact is really until the T gets tired of it. But I won't abuse it with you, I promise. (For one, it would be bad for me financially...)
LT