I'm not ok. I'm not ok.
And I know I'm allowed to reach out to you. But I also know I shouldn't run to you every time something hurts or every time I cry. Is this one of those times I should reach out or one when I should sit with it alone?
I did reach out to S. Desperation -- this pain is 70% about him. And I hate, hate how badly I want him right now. How life or death it feels.
I want S.
I want you.
I can't have either.
I can only lie here in bed and cry alone.