Sky I have no idea what the "this" is... it's just like this heavy fog that is following me around everywhere, ALL the time. I wish i could say why i'm angry... I'm angry at everything. Mostly though, i think i'm angry because i'm so hurt... angry for how i've been betrayed by people I love... angry with myself for allowing me to feel whatever "this" is.

And my friend is actually my roomate... she's downstairs right now, and I know 100% that i could go and talk with her. But I can't. A huge part of me just wants to push her away ... push everyone away ... its safer that way.