Hi. Welcome here. I read your post and felt bad at how he treats you. It is totally up to you to leave or stay. I guess I would ask myself how many more chances should he get, is he trustworthy, can the two of you make things better? For one thing it sounds like he may have a drinking problem. He is also not honest with you as you have explained. I think trust and honesty and faithfulness are very important. I guess it's possible he could change if he were to pay attention to what he does that hurts you and stops doing it. Maybe you could ask him to go to couples therapy. If he would go that could be a good indicator of his wanting to change and willing to work on the relationship. It will take time and patience, too. If it were I and he would not go and would not listen to me, I'd figure it was disrespectful to me and I would not stay with him. But that's just me and what I'd do. I'm at an age (in my 40s) where I can't waste time with guys who aren't 100% with me. I know you love him and want it to work and I hope that can come true for you if you so desire. Good luck to you.

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