((((((((((((Sweetcrusader))))))) I feel the same way allot. I think my T thinks its more the essence of me, and that how I functions in every day life is merely survival and fears, and numbness. If I move towards healing, I can tell my survival parts and fears that I am now able to function in reality. I dunno sometimes. I think that some days, I try to tell other parts that I can be present to deal with life. It doesnt work, but ther is allot of truth to it for me.