Hi bp! I fooled around and fell in love with an alcoholic; it's no life for either person, believe me..I have been treated worse than most animals! Please love yourself enough to "see" the whole picture. My heart still hurts after leaving my guy, but it's something I had to do after he got violent..I suffer from PTSD so alcohol and violence in any form triggers this problem for me..I have become healthier since I stopped seeing him like I used to. We will probably always remain friends, just nothing like before. He has caused me to mistrust him..Take care above all else...I know it's hard to do.