Dear T,
Part of me wants to send you an e-mail with just the subject "Ignore the other e-mail, sorry, we'll just talk Tuesday" with an empty e-mail body. But I feel like that would be annoying, and you'd still feel like you had to read and respond to the other e-mail. So I'll just nervously wait to see when and what you reply--you've replied to everything else I've sent (even when it's just been a "thanks" to your response), so I'm sure you'll at least say something. I'm just worried you'll be mad at me for sending it...I suspect that's just stuff with MC and projection though...

I think part of what this is really about, which I probably need to come out and say at some point, is if we stop seeing MC, then all I'll have is you. I'm used to having a T plus MC, so if there's issues with one, I'd have someone else. But if we're going to start working on termination with MC, that will leave just you. I trust you so far, but it's only been 3.5 months...are you there for the long run? Like really there and committed, no matter what? (well, within reason, of course.) But I'm too scared right now to come out and ask that...plus I don't know if I'm in a place where I'd completely trust your reply (see: MC). Like, maybe it's better if you *don't* make promises you don't know you can keep the way he did (like "I won't abandon or reject you").
LT