Pdoc,

I've been struggling a lot and wanting to give up lately. I wish we could have and appointment, but I don't have any plans to go home by now. I don't have anything left there.
I've been wanting to message you for a while now, but since you didn't reply to my last 2 emails until I called you, I've been avoiding to contact you because I was afraid you wouldn't reply this time either.
I feel like I've been bothering you and taking too much of your time lately. The last 2 times I called, you spent almost an hour talking to me on the phone.. and then I thought that was like having 2 extra session without paying you for them. I feel guilty and not worth of your time because I'm always stressing and worrying about the same "simple things".
Also, there are certain things we have never talked about because I'm afraid you might invalidate my feelings like my previous therapist did.
This is something that is really bothering me right now and I wish I could open up about it, but I feel so much shame and difficulty to make myself vulnerable again.
I want your help but I'm really having a hard time asking for it [emoji17]