I'm not sure what I can do, or ask for here. Christmas Eve I was drinking wine and I guess according to my brother I became verbally "abusive", that is something I know I have done in the past when fairly drunk.

She has "controlled" my life for as long as I remember. It would be so hard to explain this, as I am around 50 years old and she is 7 years older. There is so much back story to try to explain and get it out, that I just don't know where to begin.

I called her by accident this morning (not really an accident actually), I was worried because it was a private number and she uses that all the time to me, and my son was out all night so I checked as I missed the call, if it was her. She immediately spoke to me as if everything is normal. I just listened, laughed a bit as I said "my face is all swollen up on the one side", then she started saying "I feel bad about it, but I had to hit you to snap you out of it, you were unresponsive so you had it coming etc."
going on to say, my brother agrees with her that I deserved it, but then she got really defensive and made up a lie. That I was ready to assault my dad. I would never in my life do such a thing. I remember before she hit me, she yelled over and over "YOU HAVE EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING"

She is the favourite of my Dad's, always was always will be, so I now know my dad will go to the extreme of agreeing with her that I would have assaulted him. She said, "dad agrees with me'.. Her problem is, she already had her daughter and son in law put a restraining order on her. The son in law claims she did many things to them, and I always wondered if my sister was abusing her daughter.

The other problem is, the only witness to what she did is my brother. He doesn't hate me, but things its just normal to hit someone. He hit his own son, punched him, and now his son doesn't talk to him for well over a year.

I'm not innocent, I'm sure I told my sister to **** off before she hit me, but that doesn't merit the extent to which she went. She threatened me in the past, she had her hands on my chin and throat, and this was my first hospitalization in my 20's. I never accused her or brought it up until a few years ago when she began controlling everything that happened to my mother. She was high on mj a few years ago, and said "I know dad still hits mom, he told me so"...... and didn't give a ****. I absolutely am bordering on hate for her. She made up a story on the phone today that I once pushed my mom down the stairs. She is sick. I would never do that, I was always worried for my mother and was checking on her as often as I could. Dad was abusing my mother, I think. THere were dry empty cups by her bed, and clean dishes on one side of the sink every morning to go with his dirty dishes on the other side, to make it look like he made sure she ate something. She was left to lay in bed, and the night she had her "stroke", I seriously wonder if he hit her again.

I'm sorry this is long, but I'm freaked out by it all. They all want me gone, I don't care. I know the truth and that is all that matters. Dad, before she died, asked me to pick up 10 bags of peppermint candies. I refused, she was diabetic, and was given nothing but that to live on. I f n hate my family right now. I needed to vent.