Depression and anxiety is so hard man. It's just so hard. I am 20-years old.
I fight everyday against it all everyday. I am a loner (I am not trying to make this a pity thread but describe myself). I don't have any friends. I don't know how to talk to my parents about how I have been feeling. I was prescribed an antidepressant 6-7 months ago, which made me feel A LOT better. But since then I still get anxious, depressive episodes but not as severe at all what it once was. I am just so sad that this is the way I am and probably be for rest of my life !! My parents think Im better but truth is I am not . I had to deactivate my social media account because it made me so sad. seeing everyone else have fun, whatever and me at home made me so sad. It's just so hard. Anhedonia is real guys. I will get interested in stuff then i cant get interested in it anymore. It's so frustrating.

I'm currently crying right now. I start school in few weeks and I am so afraid it will trigger everything. I am terrified guys. School stresses me out a lot but it makes me sick. I had to delete my FB and everything because seeing everyone with these PERFECT lives and how everything is so GREAT made me feel so sad!

I don't know how to talk to my parents about this. I don't have a place of my own I live with them. They think I am all better but I will freak them out if I tell them I feel this way, or something I don't know I get uncomfortable talking about all of this. I've accepted the fact today (unfortunately) I will have this for the rest of my life.