C,


I'm sorry.
I feel like the s***tiest client.
You've been incredibly good and kind and gentle and patient with me.
And yet all I can do is continue to freaking cry.
I don't want to be a negative person.
I am really scared that if I don't feel better, if I go through these long periods of falling apart, that you'll get annoyed with me and just say "I give up - go ahead and wallow."
But you've not given me any indication that that's something you'd ever do.
So I don't even know where I'm getting that from.
****