all i can hear is screaming inside my head
i want to run away but i can't
i don't know where to go
im terrified im a burden on my friends
i can't stop crying
the flashback, the memories, the thoughts.....are haunting me...
they follow me everywhere
even in my sleep
when im driving
when im working
when im reading
when im smoking
i can't sleep anymore
i can't relax
i can't breathe
I can't stop crying
i'm crying every single day for hours and hours
my mind is raging with screams....my screams...
i can hear my screams from when i was a child
screaming over and over and over
it doesnt stop
i can't think clearly
im sad
i want to be dead
i want to live
i want to survive
but im not strong enough
i can't handle it
its every single day
someone will help me and ill feel ok
but it wont last
it will all come flooding back
i want to hurt myself
i want to dissociate
i want to scream
i want to tell my mum
i want to scream at her
i want to scream at him
i want to cry
i want my friends to hug me
i want them to hold me
i want them to never leave me
coz im so so so so so so so so scared that i wont get thru this
i've failed everything else...why would i succeed now..
i want to dissociate forever so i never come back to reality
i want to sleep forever...
i want help....
im desperate.....
i can't stop crying