She told me to write her that day. I am aware it is new years eve and all. But why sending me an email, telling me to write her and then not replying to my own email? Isn't she suppose to make me feel better, show me support? She knows this particular time of the year is very hard for me, why letting me down? Instead she is causing me pain. I thing I'm going to take some pills with alcohol, fall asleep because i can't stand it anymore.