Hey. I've been seeing my therapist for over a year now, and I still find it extremely hard to talk to him, at times. It sounds like you have something that you feel that you really need to talk to her about... But that you are finding it hard to talk about it.

I think that it is understandable that you would find it hard to talk about it when secrecy and simply not talking about it has been the past strategy. It sounds like you think that your therapist is doing what she can so that you feel safe to talk about it. Trust simply does take time. But it sounds like you are looking to make some gentle steps forward on disclosing some of this. I think that your therapist will be used to having to take some time to build trust before a person really opens up to her. Some people find that they are really very open right from the start - and sometimes it can be about containing a person with that strategy. But fairly often, people find that they really struggle with talking about things. You aren't alone in that.

One way to do it is to start out gently. Instead of writing down the whole issue, maybe writing down a part of it. I really do think... That we find a way when it is time. And sometimes... Being a bit gentle / easy on ourself can be the way to go.

If you are finding it hard to talk to her about it...
Do you think you could talk to her about having this thing that you are finding it hard to talk about?

Sometimes I find that going meta helps...