Hey,

Yeah, it sounds like you could use someone to talk to! People here can help. If you read around a little you might find people discussing things that resonate with you, and you can of course post about things yourself.

I'm not quite sure on the sequence of events... And... I'm not quite sure how old you are. It is fairly common for teenagers to get to a point where they aren't quite sure who they are / who they want to be. A period where we try and figure out who we are and what we want independently of our parents. That can be a tricky time... Sometimes people aren't as close to their parents as they were previously (while they try and figure things out), sometimes there can be conflicts etc where there never were before.

You say that dropping out of school was what started things off... Can you remember why you wanted to drop out at the time?

You said you were doing well in school... When we do well in something that can be a source of self-pride and self-esteem. When you dropped out... I guess you lost that. Then losing a boyfriend and losing a closeness with your parents... I guess a little social anxiety would be a fairly typical response to that.

But of course I could be way way way off...