@LT glad to hear you're planning on working to terminate with MC. It will be hard, and you will most likely feel like you've been "set back" emotionally. However, I think it's necessary for you to really move forward. And remember, feeling worse doesn't always mean you did the wrong thing. For example, when someone leaves an unhealthy or abusive relationship, there are often feelings of loss and grief, despite the suffering caused by the relationship. It's natural to want to keep the status quo, because then we don't have to go through the pain of separation. It can be hard to accept that doing something that causes more pain for a while will lead to less cumulative pain in the end. Hopefully, your T can help you come up with a plan to manage the emotions that will come up so that you can keep yourself safe.