I have been hurt. So much. I'm sick of being hurt. I'm sick of being attracted to unhealthy situations and people. I'm sick of feeling so lonely and disconnected that I'd do anything (unhealthy) to make it stop. I have been harmed so much. I know this sounds like victim mentality (and I hate that I feel like I have to apologize for my pain). I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm a ****ing wreck.