LT

I'll be honest and say that I couldn't personally handle the last paragraph of your T's email. Too much for me right now... and yet... it also really describes the change in my life since losing S. The prospect of losing C is so so painful for me... but, having lost S, and having survived it and even smiled again... I seem to operate now with exactly what your T said in the end: I'll be ok, and I won't be alone - I will have other relationships, and I can feel close to and trust people even though there is a risk of loss.

So, just kind of giving a nod to that.
Even though, right now, I'm stuck in little girl mode and desperately need C to just stick with saying he's not going to abandon me.