i want to write you a letter and explain that i'm figuring this out inside myself. i understand now that you were never going to be able to give me what i wanted as far as closure to our relationship. and that you must have had a good reason for not doing a sand tray with me despite all the times i'd remind you i wanted to, and you always saying "I know, and we will" we never did. i just wish you would have been honest with me and told me why we couldn't instead of dangling it out there in front of my nose like a carrot. despite these things, i don't hate you. i'm not even angry anymore. hell, i probably still love you. and there will always be a little special place in my heart for you. the past 6+ years of traversing this therapy road with you, well, the relationship we shared meant so much to me. i wish you a happy and successful 2018 and beyond.