Happy New Year everyone. I hope that 2018 is a better year.

I'm just trying to stay positive, but that is difficult. I had dinner with family and committed my plan to not drink a lot of alcohol. I just had one drink and feel relieved that I was able to limit myself to just that. I'm a little bit gloomy to be honest and have my mind on a lot of the losses experienced in 2017 and feel a little lonely, but I'm glad the day and night are over with. Everyone around me is getting sick too, and I feel like I am starting to catch a cold. I'm supposed to go back to work Tuesday, so it's bad timing. It puts extra pressure on me to not miss any more days, but hopefully things won't get worse. My anxiety is still pretty high.