I wish somehow I could go back in time to last night, take my life, and not make it to 2018- their's been a mistake- why am I still here?

their are plenty of people who want to live in 2018- and plenty of people who celebrated last night because of the new year.

I'm not one of them, I'm not.

I have nothing to look forward to and no motivation.

if someone asked me what do you want out of life in 2018, I wouldn't have an answer for them. I really don't want anything- accept for it to end