I am learning to not blame my self, for someone else's issues. You tried to help people the best way you could. It isn't your fault that some of the people you tried to help were not able to get fixed. Some people's issues may never be able to be corrected, and that doesn't belong to you. None of us are god, and none of us have control of anyone else but our selves. You should be proud of the people that you were able to get through to. All of us with MI know how difficult each of us can be, and if we are honest with our selves we know that we decide if we will accept the help that is offered to us. My thoughts, and prayers go out to you, to help you with your battle with your self. Also if you are interested, I made a large comment to the post of Letter to Mom, and Dad. It will explain a lot about me.