There is nothing wrong with the thoughts you have Anna, they are merely thoughts and won't hurt anyone. What matters is that you don't act upon them. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders, and I imagine these thoughts of yours will remain just that - thoughts.

If you try to force them out of your head though, they will come back stronger. That is like if I told you "DON'T THINK OF PINK ELEPHANTS. WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T IMAGINE PINK ELEPHANTS". Well, I imagine at least a quick image of a pink elephant came up. Trying to avoid the thoughts or push them away is the worst thing you can do.

What I learned through exposure therapy with my OCD intrusive thoughts is that a thought is a thought. I used to do meditations with my old therapist where he would have me do deep breathing while allowing all my thoughts to flow by like a river. Just notice them as they happen, but don't judge them. They are merely thoughts. At first this may be difficult but over time it gets easier, and the brain learns not to freak out about it.