Thanks for the emotional support. It really helps to have even just knowing that’s there. Should I beat myself up for the drama in my back story? Were my bad choices so off that it’s apparent I really have a disorder? Couldn’t it be I was just a ditzy young woman? I don’t mind judgment and criticism. Maybe I ask to get beaten up for being such a slut. Maybe I’m being masochistic. Was I crazy or stupid or both?