An above poster said this was normal, and I fully disagree. It sounds like you always need to be the center of attention, which is not normal. Have you ever heard of Histrionic Personality Disorder? Here is the PsychCentral page on it:

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/h...lity-disorder/

This disorder is characterized by always needing to be the center of attention. I am not diagnosing by any means, but it's what jumped out at me when I read your post. There are also elements of NPD in what you describe:

NPD info: https://psychcentral.com/disorders/n...lity-disorder/

It is hard to change one's personality characteristics, but it can be done through therapy and hard work. Medication likely wouldn't help for the issues you describe. I wish you all the best.