I was in my mid 40s when I had my first full psychotic break with mania and ended up hospitalized. That was when i was doped up on 60 mg of celexa and couldn't relax or sleep but no one suspected bipolar. I had auditory hallucinations and frank delusions. I think all of my psychoses have been cannabis induced.

Psychosis is incredibly isolating. I can talk to my pdoc about it but that is it. And folks here. It means a lot to be able to share here.