Hello Phasma: I'm sorry you are in this most difficult situation. I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!

P.S. Here are links to some articles from PsychCentral's archives on the subject of marriage & divorce. Perhaps something in them will be of help:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...ng-to-divorce/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...es-put-it-off/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/7-reaso...ge-counseling/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...edict-divorce/