A bit of backstory. I was involved with who I thought was my best male friend. He treated me awfully and I cut him off 2 times during the 5 months this happened. The second time he came back with lines that suggested he made major changes and wanted to progress things. It wasn't true and hence everything fell apart again.

I made friends with his group of friends which also consisted of people I had known and was friendly with since I was a teen. The third time things fell apart, the guy would not let things go and caused drama among the group by continually mentioning my name and checking up on my whereabouts, which of course led me into his web of drama by defending myself. Because I was the newest there, their loyalties laid with him and it was easiest to get rid of me to stop the drama and I was excluded from new years (which we had all planned together well before he was invited) and told not to rejoin the group for some time.

I was already in a horrible place and they kicked me while I was down. I did not care about the guy, I just didn't want him to ostracise me from my friends. I attempted suicide that night. It was not a plea for help, it was a genuine attempt. I made it through because unbeknownst to me, other medications I need to take, dramatically slowed down the absorption of what I used. I let people know what happened, not for sympathy but just to tell them I'm ok, I'm seeking help and for them to continue their new years as normal.

Some have expressed that they now dislike me and don't want me to come near the group again and others,who I thought I had the strongest bond with, have flat out ignored me despite sending an apologetic and positive new years message to. One sent me a mean message claiming I did it for attention and to manipulate and they don't want to see or speak to me. No one has asked if I am actually ok. Nevermind the fact I helped them through all of their recent struggles with no judgement, as they struggle with mental health issues too.

I'm feeling so alone. I don't know if it's worth salvaging the friendships. I can't tell if they are they just angry/upset and need time to cool off or if they are they just cold hearted people who I shouldn't be wasting time on. Obviously if it's the latter, there is nothing I can do. If it's the former, how do I go about repairing the friendships? Clearly they need a break from me and I will never ever mention or go near the guy who started this saga in the first place, but if it is worth salvaging, where do I start? How long do I wait? what do I say? Especially when they are ignoring me.